I am currently on yet another Skype call with Michelle and Zach. It feels like summer and I’m pretty sure Zach just said, “And I sung my heart out for you,” to Michelle. And Zach and I are the married couple? Pshhh. It is silent. I am pretty sure I should say something.
“Your typing is so scary.” Zach says.
“Heyyyyy,” I said.
And then the conversation changed to the underground railroad.

I think I am going to use this second (or third, really, because I still have that secret blog… and no, you can’t have the link ) blog more often. To post little quippy updates that I don’t have to worry about sounding like masterpieces or spend a lot of time perfecting. I think that it’ll be fun.

We are talking about colleges right now, and I find that I love having this intelligent conversation with these smart people. I need to have more conversations like these. I also need to ignore the clock as it’s 3:03am and tomorrow I’m getting up early (well, kind of early, like 10 am, because I have to shower and go shop for paint with my mom) but this is really fun.

Zach keeps insulting my typing. He says that he thinks I am pounding on the keyboard. I want to tell him that I’m going to give him a pound on the head. Aren’t I sweet?

I am going to start typing again and see if Zach makes a comment. So far, so good. In other news, I find it amazing that I wrote an entire novel in the month of November. I mean, it’s not done yet, but it’s pretty close and I feel really proud.

I am exhausted. Tomorrow is Sunday, and I have a feeling that it’ll be good. G’night, third blog.

LISTS!

things I need to copy over when reinstalling win7
steam folder (steamapps)
all stuff in personal
no. (you know)
downloads folder

programs
Opera – done
uTorrent – done
Pidgin – done
7-zip – done
Steam – done
CCleaner – done
Vent – done
VLC – done
Daemon tools – done
SequioaView
Sony Vegas
PSCS4
Paint.net or GIMP

games to get
Assassin’s Creed 2
MW2
GTA4

i’m not confused. i know hes not mine. i’ve accepted that. i accepted that the day he left me. but he gave me something, that no one else could have even imagined possible. he brought me from the brink of being suicidal and brought me to be optimistic and true. he gave me hope… he wasn’t just some kid that i was with for a while, he was my everything.

when everything gets taken away its not easy to start up again. its not easy to be okay. i’m trying, and i could take the easy way out and just find someone else… but first of all, that would hurt me more than it would help me.. and whenever that person leaves, i might as well have gone back to where i started, i need to be independent before i can rely on someone else. i have walls around every emotion. i dont feel. i really dont feel, i just am.

Debating on what to do.

If i move forward,

i may not have anything to go back to.

If i go backwards,

i may not have anything to look forward to.

If i stay where i am,

i can only keep debating on what to do.

And. _ Our 2 new tracks

La Danse Des Maladroits – MadKids

Porcelain Fountains – MadKids

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Then 2. _ Here Is Our November House Mix

MadKids November House Mix 09 by madkidsmusic

OMG – Andreas Jornvil
Kenya – La Pena
Funky Drama - Rhadow & Luca M
Ballin a Jack – M.In & Bastian Schuster
Dirt Cabana – Moritz Piske
Lost In The Red Room – Bunkers
Rare Tap (2000 And One Cut) – Sandy Huner
Wife – Rampa
Let The Sun Shine Out (Jerome Sydenham’s Vocal Dub) – Flora Cruz
Brick House (Milton Jackson Remix) – Tomoki Tamura
Sunka Sanka – Ramon Tapia
Candela (Original Mix) – Yvel & Tristan
On – &ME

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1st. _Here is our November New School Mix

MadKids New School Mix Novembre 09 by madkidsmusic

Mumboi – MadKids
Eight Yay Eight – Worthy
Track Dat Horn – Affie Yusuf
Saharan Complex – Mom & Dad
Mammuthus – Poligono
Jack Your Big Booty (BHQ No Acid Vocal) – Jody Finch
Klambu – Bassjackers Feat Apster
Avec Bon Bons – Edu K
Bolo Bomba – MadKids
Heavy Still (Zombie Disco Squad Remix) – Jesse Rose
Calypso – Bauchamp Vs Round Table Knights (*RIP)
La Danse Des Maladroits – MadKids

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When bouncing around the inter web this morning I came across my newest inspiration. The photographer in question is Zach Gold. He seems to favor motion shots. Lots of models in water thrashing around. It might not sound like a good photograph but check him out and see for yourself. He has even done some commissions for my favorite tv show, The Office. All in all his style is really unique and i have been inspired. He makes me want to experiment with motion.

Farmville is the most addicted game ever!! I always thought it was dumb but my brother played it so I tried and it’s just insane.

Chrome OS is impressive! I might dual boot with win7

my ipod lost all it’s music and I didn’t store my music on this PC so I lost it all
I’ll have to get it back from my sister. oh well