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Kind of major breakthrough (for lack of better terms):

You all know that couples are a major trigger for me–when my friends get in relationships, or people engage in lengthy discussions about dating, romance, marriage, etc.–it typically causes urges, paranoia, PTSD symptoms (not that I have PTSD, but several symptoms are there), abandonment issues, and anger. 53 more words

Autism Spectrum Disorder


I’ve talked about this in other entries, but it’s very present in my mind right now. I can’t remember when it started, but for several years I’ve had an extremely strong aversion to anything remotely related to romantic relationships—for me or for anyone. 244 more words

Autism Spectrum Disorder

When I Can See a Psychologist, I Need to Discuss...

Back in 2014, I was diagnosed with High Functioning Autism Spectrum Disorder. The goal in getting the diagnosis was hopeful financial aid for college. I was 22 at the time. 823 more words

Autism Spectrum Disorder

What It's Like to Feel Suicidal But Not Have Plans to do Anything

Trigger warning: This post talks about self-injury and suicide. I give specifics on why, so it could be triggering.


I’m up at 2 a.m. Most of yesterday and the day before I’ve been toying with the idea of killing myself. 294 more words

Autism Spectrum Disorder

Abandonment Issues

I’m sorry for being a burden, but my abandonment issues are acting up.  Most of it I know is imagined and irrational, but I can’t make it go away and it can be life-controlling. 285 more words

Autism Spectrum Disorder

A 3:46 A.M. Post

**Trigger warning**

This post talks about self-harm. I don’t go into great detail, but that’s the gist of it.

Any way. I’m up because of nightmares. 241 more words

Autism Spectrum Disorder

My Story

I’m not sure how many ambivalent traits I had as a young child.

I know my attachment was strange. I was social and interacted well with other children, but knew from the beginning I had no emotional bond or connection with them. 210 more words

Autism Spectrum Disorder