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Rambling #1:

<rambling>Autism is kind of an ambivalent thing when you’re high functioning. First off, every kind of wiring has its unique strengths. But the reason I talk about is sometimes it feels like those are forgotten. 161 more words

Autism Spectrum Disorder


I’ve talked about this in other entries, but it’s very present in my mind right now. I can’t remember when it started, but for several years I’ve had an extremely strong aversion to anything remotely related to romantic relationships—for me or for anyone. 244 more words

Autism Spectrum Disorder

When I Can See a Psychologist, I Need to Discuss...

Back in 2014, I was diagnosed with High Functioning Autism Spectrum Disorder. The goal in getting the diagnosis was hopeful financial aid for college. I was 22 at the time. 850 more words

Autism Spectrum Disorder

What It's Like to Feel Suicidal But Not Have Plans to do Anything

Trigger warning: This post talks about self-injury and suicide. I give specifics on why, so it could be triggering.


I’m up at 2 a.m. Most of yesterday and the day before I’ve been toying with the idea of killing myself. 294 more words

Autism Spectrum Disorder

Abandonment Issues

I’m sorry for being a burden, but my abandonment issues are acting up.  Most of it I know is imagined and irrational, but I can’t make it go away and it can be life-controlling. 285 more words

Autism Spectrum Disorder

A 3:46 A.M. Post

**Trigger warning**

This post talks about self-harm. I don’t go into great detail, but that’s the gist of it.

Any way. I’m up because of nightmares. 241 more words

Autism Spectrum Disorder