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One Year With Anubis

Tonight (April 30th) will be one year since I took my first oath to Anubis. One year since I knelt before my not-even-finished-yet altar and tentatively crept into astral to say my words and He surprised me by saying some of His own as well. 125 more words

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For My Beloved Jackal

Because I hate seeing You so sad, seeing this wound that never heals and knowing I can’t fix it. It’s one I understand, too, and that no one should ever have to live. 32 more words

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嘆息燃燒起的暴風煙

在夢裡所有的殼都會卸下,光會暗去。此時牽著甜和苦的痛覺都會醒過來,最柔軟的地方會說最真實的話。

受傷之後走向癒合的樣貌,其實更像是一種償還的過程。事情出了錯也許就是因為當時太快樂,得意總是比較容易忘形,疏忽了很多小小卻至關重要的細節,到最後繞不回來。堆積狂熱可簡單了,掙扎放開和清空才好比融雪的階段,最冷。剩下自己獨自一個人慢慢地還,沉埋在睡裡,路過死亡的艱硬,用眼淚細細膩膩的裹上、纏好、下葬,忘掉舊情的宇宙,倒退到最一開始的無欲無求,真誠又簡單的心願,只願來生能開出美麗芬芳的花。

後記:《冬》裡我覺得最揪心的一段詞。不必是最華麗的,但是卻是細膩得足以穿透人群的熙攘和自身的皮膚,直直勾進那些平常不會掛在嘴邊的事、最不去給予注意但其實深刻過的一些心情。左邊照片是在張懸的頁面上偶然看見的,當下覺得這就是我腦中關於這個意象的畫面,便忍不住私自借來並將詞給動手填了上去。我想或長或短我們都曾經如此,堅守自己病床前的靈魂,時而昏迷,時而吸不上那口氣,然後猛然起身嘔了一地那消化不了的髒血,結晶成類似詩、或者是顛三倒四的模樣。

From Now On

Anuuuuubis!!

Taking a break today from all this seriousness I’ve been posting about lately. I found this brilliant picture and had to share:

That’s the very famous Anubis shrine from the tomb of Tutankhamen (the same one that’s up there in my blog’s title image)…and He’s wearing a fringed blanket!!!! 30 more words

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Free

So it’s over. Things finally came to a finale in dramatic fashion over Friday night into Saturday morning. I’m shown yet again that really, *really* don’t screw with the Neteru. 677 more words

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Anpu / Anubis

Jackal-headed warrior
Guardian of my ways between
Thank you for how you
Protect my spirit
Keep me safe
How I honour all of your names… 26 more words

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Open My Heart...

Love doesn’t come easily to me. I experience it, but it’s a thing that happens in my mind, not something I feel in my heart. I have the distant, stoic kind where I could stand up and die for what (or whom) I cared about, but not the compose songs and soliloquize on the way to the executioner sort. 598 more words

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