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It's Back

She’s back. The bad. I’m going to fight her. I wish someone from the outside could jump into my head and help me fight her. 737 more words


Picture above, depicting how I feel today….Cold. Shocked. Submerged. Dark. Vulnerable. Foetal.

I haven’t got over last night, nor do I know when I will. It’s 11.34am but the traumatic joy stripping trauma based aftershocks continue. 484 more words

Mental Health

Humanity Switch

Knurd (drunk spelled backwards) is “the opposite of being drunk. It’s as sober as you can ever be. It strips away all the illusion, all the comforting pink fog in which people normally spend their lives, and lets them see and think clearly for the first time ever. 282 more words


Domestic Abuse Silenced Me...

And now my family want to silence me too


This is an extremely difficult blog post to put in to words but I am going to do my best because I feel it’s an important topic to raise, and also one that I don’t doubt many others experience through either ignorance, not wanting to believe or a whole host of other reasons. 557 more words



I was hypomanic earlier. If you read my previous post you will know I’m not hypomanic anymore.

I don’t usually make videos or share videos when I’m hypomanic, usually because I have little control over what I’m saying and my spontaneity in what I say can often seem a bit shit when played back in retrospect. 184 more words



Melencholic-not an alcoholic-credit cards point to be being a shopaholic-flirtoholic-reach for the crutch and the mood enhancing tonic.

Except I can’t.

Missing it today-did it ever get better anyway? 256 more words



What is delicacy? I’m pretty sure it’s not a word that could be applied to my style of writing or how I come across. I wonder where the innate delicacy of my soul has gone, and why my delicateness goes unexpressed? 1,082 more words