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night time makes me so scared

why is it that when night rolls around i am so scared? i literally freeze when i lay down. my body trembles and i start to panick. 91 more words


Not so Safe and Sound

I was doing some editing tonight and the song Safe and Sound came on by Capital Cities. I used to love this song and occasionally still do, but tonight it rather pissed me off. 770 more words

Riding the Waves of Grief.

I’ve had a very mixed day. I went out for lunch with my husband and friends and that was good. When I got home I was really tired so went to bed for a couple of hours. 893 more words

Finding Space for Me

I started EMDR in addition to the neurofeedback.  Yes, the neurofeedback is helping, but I’ve had PTSD for so long, I am facing the possibility that there are limits to how much I will heal.  275 more words

Mental Illness

Untangled (The Foreward)

On a cool Colorado morning in June, I guided Alexis and her daughter up the switchbacks leading to the summit of a 14,000-foot peak. With the tree line below us, I watched the two extraordinary women in front of me scramble up the rocks and obstacles that stood in their way. 358 more words

Therapy Tuesday

Yesterday was therapy day. We had a good appointment. It was very productive.
We mostly talked about managing feelings and emotions. I told Eileen that I’d been very suicidal the past week while she was on vacation. 227 more words


Please, Sir?

Most days I’m flying high and feeling great, then I begin to feel it. The eventual fall, the moment when all that’s good and great in my life will turn upside down, leaving me hurt again. 938 more words