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Day 302: Meaninglessness and ‘Lost’ ‘Control’

 Reference –>Here to the Atlantean perspective/series on the system of meaninglessness.

 

Continuing this series of posts from Day 291, and the decision to bring ‘lost’ into and as an energy source within a system of meaninglessness, and a further look into the semantic world or network of memory, experience and self definition that I had installed into the word ‘lost’. 796 more words

Day 301: Freedom

Day 301: Freedom

Freedom: how is this word to be other than decorative or weaponized unless it is lived? Coupled with ‘Democracy’, it has become like a brand name that seems to justify and normalize the killing of human beings using high explosives. 549 more words

Day 387: Overcoming Reluctance

Getting disciplined is, to my interpretation now, akin to pulling taut a rope. Until it breaks. Why is this? Theoretically, taking on more responsibility, doing more in a day, would lighten the load I in fact have taken upon myself. 442 more words

7 Year Journey To Life

Day 300: Meaninglessness, Lost, and Freedom Mind Spin.

Day 300: Meaninglessness, Lost, and Freedom Mind Spin.

 

 

A direction: From meaninglessness to a hereness, a connection to all, an intimacy.

 

From who I am within and as meaninglessness to who I am in awareness of myself and in awareness of the relationships and scripts that I have written for myself within this word, all coming from decisions that I have made of who I am within and as emotion, where as described last post I made the decision to bring ‘lost’ into and as an energy source within this system of meaninglessness. 1,250 more words

Day 385: Feeling Lost

Feeling lost. The experience I would like to describe is the feeling of constantly having situations thrown at you, and you constantly accepting them and dealing with them. 500 more words

7 Year Journey To Life

Day 299: 'Lost' in Meaninglessness

 

 

Where I left off writing last time was with, in a way, a memory of a state of becoming intrigued by this apparent ‘secrecy’ that had become my accepted interpretation of my own suppressions, that I also projected on the world, where this intrigue became positively charged, while at the same time the suppression held down tight maintaining as I did a judgment of self, a definition of self as an absolute of worthlessness, and as an experience of shame. 793 more words

Day 384: On Freedom

Reacted negatively when my mom asked me what I would like to do for lunch (eat now or later), and after I gave my answer, The Answer popped up and she was resolute in eating together after peak hours (this was at around 1.30 pm). 593 more words

7 Year Journey To Life