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The Special Olympics Are Here!!

“Let me win, but if I cannot win, let me be brave in the attempt.”

The 2015 Special Olympics World Games is taking place this week in Los Angeles, CA. 364 more words

【諸事輕聲響】偽情書II

夏至過後,便是暗影重新掌權的開始。

人在斗室裡待著,日復一日地看著白晝比前一天短一些,然後再短一些。夏天說穿了是一個空洞的概念,熱也是,那些都是櫥窗裡頭限量販售的稀有品。害怕晦暗者如你,才點了一天的蠟燭,便用罄了整個七月該有的溫度,風吹滅了焰頭,餘煙軟綿綿地溜進身體裡,逼出一攤濕濕熱熱的淚水攪和著鼻水。

親愛的,忘了是誰說過,那些流出身體的液體都是為了讓人適應稜角銳利的生活,調節莫測的溫度、濕度,或者撫慰陣痛,舒緩摩挲世界粗糙表面那種熱辣辣的痛楚。

你打開網頁,又關掉,再打開,一個衝動想掏出十年前那齣連續劇再看過一遍,一忖集數太多了,便反覆地播放著片尾曲,「我希望是一個微笑,讓傷心的人得到治療;我希望是一本童話,告訴你世界多美好。」危險心靈,那是你高中的第一年,像是誰跟誰說好似的,小說才剛讀完,劇就上檔。然而你記得電視劇你只看了個起頭,後面的集數只能斷斷續續地補起,在那個線上資源還沒有那麼發達的年代裡,你記得母親對著電視的螢幕喃喃說了句:「唉,真的太危險了,譁眾取寵。」你說你看了小說覺得感動,母親搖了搖頭說,唉,太年輕。那時的你並不知如何反駁。

親愛的,消息的傳來是那種自四面八方突擊的態勢,跨越地理上的界線,在你意識過來的時候已然大塊大塊地攻城掠地,兵臨王城之下。你看見自己的愕然,你才剛欣慰著議題受到矚目,卻已看見歷史自我反覆的週期似是有意識地加快軌速。有近乎一個小時的光景,當你從深刻的無力感中回過神來,試著以為自己在一次次的演練裡頭終於變得殘忍,百毒不侵,卻發現冷靜的假象裡,包藏的是情緒的錯亂,你站在一個沒有佈景、沒有標示、沒有方向的管道間裡,看著大大小小的聲響在眼前川流,沒能吐出一個字。

你記得電視劇改編小說,刪去了一些尖銳的爭議性場面,比如關鍵人物沈韋歌唱後自殺的段落,翻到那一頁的時候你紅了眼睛,你告訴自己那是因為自己過於年輕,過於濫情。十年之後你又在半夢半醒之際翻到這一頁,你慶幸自己依然會被觸動,你也不禁喟嘆制度依然捍衛著虛妄的意義,傷害依舊不斷發生。親愛的,此時的你已然能夠輕易地回答,比起對於權力的質疑,真正危險的是對於不存在的唯一定理深信不疑,以民族國家之力構築一個不容任何人置喙的神聖幻象,真是極其容易。親愛的,你明瞭愈是熟稔愛恨之人,愈是把自己推在地獄的入口,用肉身阻擋死神望向人間的冷峻目光。

戴上耳機,關掉視窗裡奔跑的青春影像,把歌再聽一次。「我希望你的眼淚,我不要忘掉⋯⋯」親愛的,你發現人身體的機能有時近乎可怖,入夏以來,這竟是你書讀得最認真的一天。

( featured image:嘉義文創園區, 2014 )

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Church & State, Coyote Bowl Series, Malbec, Okanagan Valley, BC, 2011, 14.5% abv.

Purchased in September 2014 at the winery, we opened this on Saltspring Island with charcuterie and BBQ’d sausages in summer 2015.

Opaque purple and very young with intense aromas of ripe, purple plum, black cherry, burnished leather and fresh pine, the Coyote Bowl is dry on the palate. 49 more words

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