Tuesday September 20, 2016
from a text
I apologize to you with the back of my head and the front of my chest pushing into you like a bean out of its pod there is no quiet or calm no pleasant or nice I do not even mean it with the whole of me I do not know the still of you I do not want to be wrong when being right hurts so much I show you with examples words I’ve said once or twice before bent into a shape I do not recognize when I aim them straight at you I should have known better than to waste myself on the off chance of you on the dull blade that won’t cut through but won’t stop dragging back and forth back and forth slow death slow and unbearable life lived backwards I apologize to you with the parts of me that are still num from the sting as if I could take the blame and eat it so you don’t have to stuff it down so you don’t have to swallow me
Tags » Pointless
MONDAY SEPTEMBER 12TH.Just trying to finish my reporting and writing notes.Very lazy ,you see things in my life are so fucked up and the only thing I’m doing is complaining about it .It’s 11:30 pm and I’m still looking at my computer screen and typing my first blog pointlessly .I don’t even have content to post right now.It’s so fucking bad and yes today is the day I made my first word press account so I’m kinda stoked!