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Why I Keep an Empty Coke Can on My Shelf

When I was young, my parents or other adults occasionally quoted to me the old saw, “You can’t judge a book by its cover.” I haven’t heard that for a long time. 680 more words

Faith

Results of Guilt

Result of my guilt
Trickled down my 
Elevated arm
Hurt and shame
To go back 
Impossible
The sign of death
Upon me
Left to scar
My inflicting pain
Increacing
At each second
Emptyness
Fills my
Surroundings
Sweat drains into
The pores of 
My skin
Hallucinating? 25 more words
Poems

Am I Living the Life I Want to be Living

Yes and no. Yes because I am slowly becoming the woman I have always wanted to be. I no longer am unhappy and alone. I have the comfort of another human being hugging me and telling me I’m beautiful.  757 more words

Love

Am I a Good Example to Others?

This is a hard question to answer. I’m still not at that point in my life that I feel I can brag about myself or to talk of what a good example I am. 493 more words

Journal

Are My Actions Guided by Love or by Fear

Most of my life my actions have been guided by fear. I was always a fearful child. I was fearful of abandonment. My folks were alcoholics and I lived with a step brother who was 8 years older than me. 613 more words

Journal

One more night

Strength
Will power
determination
Anger at ones we have loved
Resentment 
Drunk ass
Loosing everything
Loneliness
Abandonment
Security
Love
Fearful fights
Lonely nights
Angel rocking 
Comforting
Death waits one more night
Thoughts a mess
Slit
Blood pours
Pain,
Mental anguish relieved
one more night
Loneliness fills the air
Little boy cries
No more beer
I pop the lid 
yelling go to bed 
One more night
1990
Poems

Bloodletting (Revisited)

I am doing what I do best

Living inside my head

alone

in the early hours

listening to music

that breaks my heart

over and… 178 more words

Poetry