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Running instead of Cutting

I tried running to cope when I wanted to cut earlier. I don’t even remember the trigger anymore. It sort of worked. At first it helped, but once I started breathing normally again, my SIB urges returned. 189 more words

Mental Illness

Restricting makes me strong

I haven’t eaten in over 24 hours. It would be over 48 hours, but I absentmindedly accepted 3 skittles yesterday. It is strange how quickly the eating disordered thoughts creep in. 344 more words

Mental Illness

Why Horror?

When you tell people that you are an author, the inevitable first question is always, “Well, what do you write?” To which I nonchalantly answer, “horror.” I love seeing the reactions. 1,326 more words


Symptom Whack-A-Mole

I feel hopeless. If I don’t cut, I restrict. If I don’t restrict, I binge. If I don’t binge, I scratch. If I don’t scratch, I head bang. 118 more words

Mental Illness

self-mutilation and suicidal ideations  while in your 30s

so, here I am. awake. despite the begiing and pleading and bargaining with Great Powers-That-Be.

and I forgot to make my SI pack to bring to work. 204 more words


mended in flesh

i did it. again. last Friday i decided on a whim to cut across my forearm. it was pretty impulsive, i must say. i wanted to split the flesh apart, across the thick keloidal burn scar. 528 more words