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It Glitters

by Blue_Notebook

This abyss, almost an imitation of a glass’s surface, have depths of shimmering illuminants. The warmth of the void is terrifying. Because I see no hope from such stars– I see monsters. 563 more words

New Job, New "Normal"

I start a new job today.

Which honestly sounds insane because my due date is in T-NINE days! Although I’ve appreciated the time away from work to focus on my pregnancy, Luke and healing, I’ve been hanging in some weird limbo between wanting to take another step forward toward a new “normal” and never wanting to even try toward a new normal. 237 more words

This IS The Killing STATE of #Tory Britain

Two month ago I wrote a post with this name which I’ve left below as a reminder.Today further evidence of the discriminatory way Governments of the past ten years have treated Sick & Disabled people has been published “ 659 more words


Traffic danced inbetween my finger tips,



The substance soaked my heart.

I was numb when your arms crashed around me,



You took me home safely. 14 more words

Click, click... boom

It’s like your heart is being squeezed with every breath you take because maybe you’re not meant to be breathing anymore.

I thought about this as I drove with my son to the park, I was crying and couldn’t stop and he sat quietly in the back watching a video on his planet. 1,249 more words


The War You Left Inside My Mind... [a 5 minute insight talk given in San Jose, July 2015]

I’ve written 5 talks trying to bend my insights to the kindness and honesty themes.

At 11:30 Saturday night, I finally decided that Dr. David can address the themes since the main talk is his arena and I will talk to you about a very unexpected set of insights I’ve received in the midst of tragedy. 938 more words

Having A Soul

Bad Dreams and Nightmares

As of late, I have been plagued with both of these. Every single night for the last 2 and a half weeks, I have had either a bad dream, a full on nightmare, or a combination of both. 476 more words

Boderline Personality Disorder